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 Post subject: Re: Blunted's Story
PostPosted: Sun Mar 18, 2012 8:11 pm 
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You are an inspiration, seriously. I admire your commitment to go through numerous doctors to get hold of Xyrem and build muscles like that despite PFS. It has been quite a while since anyone on the forum tried GHB or Xyrem so it will be very interesting to see whether you benefit from it. You have done a great job for the whole forum getting that stuff.

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One thing I've come across and have been meaning to share btw. For anyone battling with severe brainfog I could strongly advice taking a supplement such as this one: http://www.xxlnutrition.nl/energize/xxl-nutrition
(This is a dutch site for bodybuilding supplements which only takes orders from people in Holland, Belgium and Germany. I guess though like many supplements the ingredients are very universal and every bodybuilding supplement store or website from whatever country will sell such a product with basically the near same ingredients.)

Ingredients are:
Energy matrix 230mg (cafeïne anhydrous, 1,3 dimethylamylamine, synefrine)
Fatburn matrix 165mg (green tea extract, irvingia gabonensis, coleus forskohlii, selenium methionine)
Euphoric matrix 146mg (N-acetyl tyrosine, hordenine, vincamine)
Support matrix 86mg (cissus quadrangularis, fenylalanine, zinc glycinate, piperine)

What this stuff basically does is give a huge energy boost, kicks up your metabolism, makes you feel happy and gives you great mental focus. I take one tablet before each workout, and this stuff gets you fired up for 4 hours straight. I'll just be bouncing around full of energy and my mind is so clear and I have such great focus it's just insane. Great part is after those 4 hours there is no energy dump or any sort of hangover type of effect. I'm pretty sure it's the "1,3 dimethylamylamine" that's making this supplement so effective, you people might want to try and find a supplement similar to this.

Might be useful for those trying to get rid off the brainfog.


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 Post subject: Re: Blunted's Story
PostPosted: Wed Mar 21, 2012 2:45 am 
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did u get xyrem?

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 Post subject: Re: Blunted's Story
PostPosted: Wed Mar 21, 2012 9:07 am 
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Nope not yet, it doesn't work that easy. Xyrem is a highly regulated drug and in Holland it's only used for treating narcolepsy anyway, with that said I basically do not apply for a prescription for that drug. I have however informed the sleep neurologist of PFS and the ongoing studies. He is now going to dig through medical journals to see if he can find more validation for the existence of known cases about persistent side effects from finasteride even after quitting. Seeing as how this sleeping center I'm at is always looking for new forms of treatment I might get prescribed xyrem in a sort of study type of way. I don't know if I formulated that correctly but yea, you get the picture. I do however need to go through a sleep study first, he wants to exclude any other possibilities causing my chronic insomnia (like breathing problems for example) before we are going down that road. So if I'm lucky, I might get a hold of xyrem, but it's gonna take time.

I also received a private message I'll respond to here for everyone to read:
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"Hey, in terms of erection, libido, where do you stand relative to what you were pre-fin.

Does it still fluctuate like it did before, or is it pretty much consistent where you were when you wrote your posts back in Nov?

Thanks"
Umm yea, all progress I've had has been sustaining. My libido however is still low, like it's always been post-fin. Erections are fine and same with ejaculations. Consistency and force of ejaculations is a 100% back to how it was before taking finasteride, I don't know if I ever mentioned this before. To be very anecdotal and vulgar at the same time, last time I serviced myself, it came out with such force and in great amount that the ejaculate was all over the place. I had a good amount of cleaning to do hehe.

Another thing that's pretty note worthy is how lately I'm becoming more and more like myself again in terms of zest for life. I've been told by a lot of people that they've noticed a change in me. Like from being an apathetic zombie to now being a decisive energetic person. Some of my close friends who know about my problems said I've come around big time since the time this shit first hit me so that's very good.

Progress comes slow but surely.


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 Post subject: Re: Blunted's Story
PostPosted: Wed Mar 21, 2012 11:03 am 
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Blunted, what happens if you stop taking supplements like the one you posted above? What about protein supplements?


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 Post subject: Re: Blunted's Story
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Blunted, what happens if you stop taking supplements like the one you posted above? What about protein supplements?
Well I didn't discover this supplement until recently, so it hasn't played any part in my progress. What I can tell though is I can drop any part of my regimen and not notice any difference. I've changed my diet around a couple of times without having a negative effect on me. Same for when I took a little break from working out a couple of months back. I basically didn't work out for 3 weeks straight and didn't notice any difference at all. I didn't lose any muscle, strength or weight. So it's all good, I can drop my regimen without spiraling down, all progress is sustaining.


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 Post subject: Re: Blunted's Story
PostPosted: Tue Mar 27, 2012 8:06 pm 
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Hey Blunted, how are your testicle size? Also, do you still have those dark veins on your cock and balls?


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 Post subject: Re: Blunted's Story
PostPosted: Tue Mar 27, 2012 8:44 pm 
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Hey Blunted, how are your testicle size? Also, do you still have those dark veins on your cock and balls?
Hey good you mentioned that. I didn't pay much attention to it, but no, no more dark veins on my balls, they are gone. I never had those dark veins on my penis though. I do still have my moments where my balls seem to tuck in sort of and appear to be smaller of size. But a lot of times, like just right now as I'm posting this message, my balls are perfectly fine and of normal pre-fin size. My balls are never saggy and low hanging anymore either, I remember in the early days after crashing I had that a lot too, that shit has disappeared as well.


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 Post subject: Re: Blunted's Story
PostPosted: Wed May 23, 2012 10:29 am 
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I figured it's time for an update, especially with the great progress I've had the past couple of days =)

Let's first start off by saying I did not manage to get a prescription for xyrem. I've had a sleep study done, they basically monitored me from 22:30 till 7:00 in the morning. What results show is that:
- From around 23:00 till 3:00 in the morning I repeatedly fall asleep to wake up in 30 minutes, not allowing me to get into a deep sleep.
- Then after 3:00 in the morning I fell asleep for like the 4th or 5th time and I finally did manage to get into a deep sleep only to wake up 3 hours later. From that moment I did not manage to fall asleep anymore and just waited for 7:00 in the morning so I could get my shit plugged and out and I could get up.
- The next day they ran 4 tests at different times to see if I was able to fall asleep within 20 minutes. I did so 2 times.

I left a good representation of what a normal night for me looks like, now bring forth the xyrem I thought. 2 Weeks later when I had to go back to discuss the results with the doctor however, I was told xyrem for me was not an option due to dutch legislation about this drug. Here in Holland it's only used to treat people with narcolepsy. The doctor also tried to find published medical journals or something about sleeping problems caused by finasteride to justify the use of xyrem in an experimental way, but he said he couldn't find any. So with that in mind he could not describe xyrem even if he wanted to. He didn't discard my story though, but that's just how it is. They offered me cognitive sleeping therapy as treatment and perhaps later on, if necessary, I could get meds. I honestly don't care for sleeping therapy though, I've been chemically fucked over by medication, I don't see how talking about my sleeping problems is going to get me anywhere.


With that said, let's move on to the positive stuff: =)
- As I've told before, through the use of finasteride I've developed some injuries with I'm sure all you guys are familiar with. Popping joints, knee problems etc. Finasteride caused muscle loss for me initially for sure which leaves your body's balance way out of whack thus resulting in painful joints because there is just too much stress on it when there shouldn't be. My knee problems are pretty close to be entirely out of the way due to proper muscle strengthening. The knee problems were caused by the same muscle imbalance that caused testicular pain btw. Anyone still suffering from testicular pain I say go get yourself checked by a physical therapist and work on it. What happens is the muscle where your balls hang on are way out of balance tight thus causing testicular pain as well as your knee being yanked out of proper positioning as you move and shit. Go to a physical therapist and get that shit checked out, I can't stress that enough.

I've been doing some reading up on muscle imbalance and altered nervous system signalling because of it and I think this might also be playing a huge role in PFS. I already had bad posture to begin with even before taking finasteride much like in this picture:
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I think finasteride weakened my body and amplified all kinds of imbalances causing me to snap some serious shit up. Exercising is now manually giving me proper balance and helps get rid of these injuries. I can only theorize the muscle imbalances also leads to altered signalling to my junk causing persistent problems. I'm not saying it's the root cause, but it could certainly be playing parts. This I say with reference my sway back and tilting hips. I've been doing core exercises a lot as well as a whole bunch of stretching exercises and it's been working great for my posture. And more importantly, for my erections. Before I started doing these exercises I would have unusual amount of pre-ejaculate dripping out my penis only at the slightest hint of an erection. I never thought much of it so I never mentioned it but now that I've been doing these exercises and this has completely normalized it makes me think it was pretty odd after all. My erections are now more frequent as well, spontaneously even sometimes.

- Concerning sleeping difficulties, for the past month I was experiencing some problems falling asleep. I fucked my sleeping rhythm up once by taking a nap after coming back from work. This ultimately resulted in having sleeping patterns in which I was not able to fall asleep before 4 in the morning. Needless to say, fucked up shit, so I called the doctor and he prescribed me a sleeping medication called "Temazepam" to help me fall asleep and break this circle. Of course I was a little bit hesitant about putting more pills in my body but I agreed anyway knowing it was needed to be able to sleep at normal hours again. First night I took that stuff was like a revelation, I felt so mellow and relaxed 15 minutes after taking it. I went to bed right away and managed to sleep 5 hours straight of deep sleep, woke up to take a piss and then slept for another 4 hours. When I woke up it was so great. First of all, I woke up with a boner and I actually felt refreshed for once. I did not feel that completely tired feeling you have when you wake normally wake up post-fin. I was however, very drowsy from that stuff and my muscles felt very relaxed and weakish, basically like if you had just smoked a big ass joint. The next couple of days I used this stuff that drowsy effect wore off and same for the weak feeling while it still helped me get good sleep. Though I did feel like I was getting immune to the medicine rather quickly. The effect got less quite quickly as days progressed. Has anyone noticed this? How you grow immune to whatever you take very quickly ever since having taken finasteride?
But anyway about the good stuff it gave me:
- I get more quality sleep and actually feel rested when waking up.
- Waking up with a swollen mushroomtip, the strong morning wood type. Today when I woke up for example, I stayed in bed for like half an hour being a lazy ass while having a constant present, armor piercing boner that didn't go away till taking a piss.
- My libido went up from taking this shit, I wouldn't say I'm back to the horny goat I was before taking finasteride in need of relief at least 3 times a day. But I can definitely say my libido is up to a point where it hasn't been for a very long, long time. As I'm writing this I even have to fight the urge to not browse to a porn website and burp the worm so to speak while I've already blown my load last night. I guess that gives a good indication of where I am at, at the moment =P. I'm keeping low on masturbation however since I don't want to start pushing things too much as of yet. But this certainly has been some fine progress.

Temazepam is a benzodiazepine I learned today as I googled what I've actually been taking for the past 7 days:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Benzodiazepine
"Benzodiazepines enhance the effect of the neurotransmitter gamma-aminobutyric acid (GABA)"
I thought that part was particularly interesting and might explain my progress on it judging from the theories I've read on this forum.

So yea, in short, I've been feeling awesome lately, I'm very positive. In wouldn't go as far as to say I am recovered yet seeing as how I'm convinced I still have some sort of inflammation going on down there. I'm not gonna elaborate on that now, but I'm working on getting the ball rolling on that department as well. I'll keep you guys posted on that when I know more. I've also last night taken my last temazepam pill last night so I will say if this progress sustains. I only got 7 pills seeing as how short term use is relatively harmless, perhaps in the future I might take it again. For now I'll see how it goes.


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 Post subject: Re: Blunted's Story
PostPosted: Thu May 24, 2012 12:46 am 
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very interesting stuff Blunted. glad to hear that it is workign for your sleeping. another recommendation i have for you for your sleep is glutamine before you goto sleep. i found that gluatmine is a major pre cursor to GABA and does help sleep. check out whole foods for it to buy it, it's a powder supplement.

also, what exercises are you doing? yoga type stuff? are you going to a physical therapist and they are tellign yuo exercises to do?

tahnks for the update man!

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Blunted, we’ve previously had some disagreement about the extent of the merits of exercise in PFS sufferers. I’ve found that regardless of my exercise routine/attempts (I am a former athlete) the muscles do not respond in a pattern of recovery and growth as they did prior to finasteride. I suffer from the same types of muscoskeletal problems where the muscles are too weak to keep the joints in alignment. I’m responding because I’m surprised that you still have a posture such as this if you’re MMA training and have packed on muscle? Are you still able to keep up with the training routine that you had previously?

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Temazepam is a benzodiazepine I learned today as I googled what I've actually been taking for the past 7 days:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Benzodiazepine
"Benzodiazepines enhance the effect of the neurotransmitter gamma-aminobutyric acid (GABA)"
I thought that part was particularly interesting and might explain my progress on it judging from the theories I've read on this forum.

Benzos are highly addictive and lose their effect after a short while, please be aware of this before you take them again.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Benzodiazepine_dependence

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Tolerance develops within days or weeks to the anticonvulsant, hypnotic muscle relaxant and after 4 months there is little evidence that benzodiazepines retain their anxiolytic properties.


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It's been a long time again since my last post, I've been enjoying the summer mostly. I'll take some time to update once more and tell you guys how fucking great I feel.

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Blunted, we’ve previously had some disagreement about the extent of the merits of exercise in PFS sufferers. I’ve found that regardless of my exercise routine/attempts (I am a former athlete) the muscles do not respond in a pattern of recovery and growth as they did prior to finasteride. I suffer from the same types of muscoskeletal problems where the muscles are too weak to keep the joints in alignment. I’m responding because I’m surprised that you still have a posture such as this if you’re MMA training and have packed on muscle? Are you still able to keep up with the training routine that you had previously?
For me the process of building muscle and recovery has also changed compared to how I was prior to finasteride. What is quite unusual though is for me it's completely the other way. Whereas most people seem to suffer from muscle wastage and inability to exercise, I now build muscle more quickly, have increased strength and a very short recovery time from training. I can start a workout routine for any given sport to have sore muscles the day after. Only after my first session of a certain routine though, every training session I have after that workout will then result in rapid increased stength and never any muscle soreness ever again (unless I start a new workout schedule of course).

To give you an example. Not too long ago I started doing the jefferson squat in my weightlifting routine (example video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kk0aAaBPc40). The first time I tried it I had major sore muscles the days after, as any normal person would have. The next session I did this exercise though I could lift way heavier and never again did I have sore muscles from the exercise at any time whatsoever. My fitness instructor, a competing bodybuilder himself as well as a steroid user, told me he had never seen anything like that. First of all I can outlift him by a whole lot. And secondly, the recovery period I have is nothing he has ever seen in his years of bodybuilding and the experience (second and first hand) he has with steroids. We're pretty close, but I never told him about taking finasteride. Needless to say, he knows something unusual is going on with me hormonally as he jokingly said I was secretly taking steroids behind his back with me not telling him about it, because that could be the only reason to explain it.

The poor posture I mentioned is something I've always had in my life though and never caused me to have any problems. I can only theorize the muscle loss I experienced shortly after crashing may have worsened this already poor posture and caused even greater muscle imbalance. I've never had musculoskeletal problems as you describe myself where the muscles are too weak to keep the joints properly aligned. For me it's always been muscle imbalance, quite possibly a result of existing poor posture and weightraining that targets the wrong muscles to cause further problems. For my knees it was related to this where my inner leg muscles outpowered the outer leg muscles (for the lack of correct terms, it's be a long while since I've been treated for this hehe) and thus yanking the knee out of proper allignment as it's being used. As stated before there was no muscle weakness involved for me and proper strenghtening of the right muscles has fixed this. It's quite a common injury soccer players have actually. Same sort of thing I see happening a lot when people work out with too much focus on the chest and don't train the shoulders enough. These people usually get the same sort of problems with their shoulder.

And yes I can still keep up with my previous training routines, in fact I've only gotten stronger and stronger and have stepped up my training regimen. Besides weight lifting I am still actively kickboxing which I'm now better at than I've ever been in my life before in terms of cardio, technique and punching & kicking power. In fact my trainer thinks I'm ready to get in the ring, in his words I'd be an A level fighter within a year if I started competing. I'm pretty proud of that since he's a former world champion himself, coming from him that means a lot. And also the fact I can still pull this off with PFS means a great deal to me. I'm currently not competing though seeing as how I don't want to step in the ring until I've recovered.

If anything all the working out and doing sports have helped me out greatly, perhaps more so than anything else, ever since acquiring PFS. First of all it gave me something to focus on when I was totally depressed and at a point in my life where I was completely lost. As I started noticing I was making progress it also restored my self confidence. Not only did I start feeling better both mentally and physically, I also regained faith in my own body, knowing I am able to overcome this and that I will recover.

I can honestly say I feel pretty great lately, sure I'd rather be 100% recovered, but life has been good lately, I generally feel very positive. My erections are great, orgasms are powerful and the semen quality and ammount is just perfect too. I can jerk off two times in a very short time and still do good sexually on these mentioned fronts. I can definitely say sexual side effects have improved a lot over time and still appear to do so. I'm still nowhere near my former self though in terms of libido and the fact that having orgasms still affects me negatively the days after. The main thing I've found that orgasms generally affect is my sleep and thereby starting a chain reaction of other symptoms, being the overly aggressive behaviour I will have the day after and also the muscle twitches. I dunno wether it's the bad sleep or the hormonal changes because of having an orgasms, or both, but I will be so tense and extremely pissed off that it's not uncommon that I blow off some steam by punching holes in my doors and walls. Having orgasms does not affect my ability work out in any way shape or form though, I won't lose any strength or endurance. Long term abstinence also seems to improve my libido I can tell from my last try. So what I'm now planning on doing is staying abstinent for a very, very long time and see what it does for me. I've never tried it for more than a month and having orgasms seems to do more bad than good anyway. So why not stay away from it, seeing as how my low libido tells me physically my body doesn't need or want it anyway.

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Thanks for your concern, it's much appreciated. I was taking this stuff under my general practicioner's supervision, he never prescribed me more than 7 pills to prevent me getting addicted. The last thing he wants is having yet another drug causing more problems.

In the meantime, since my last post, I've also tried a medicine called ambien for sleep. It seemed to help me nearly in the exact same way temazepam did. For me it's an effective symptom manager than improves my sleep to some extent. My final 2 pills from the 7 pill strip didn't do jack shit though and it lost it's effect entirely, I slept just as bad without as without taking them.

I've now found what is really working for me though. Since 4 days I've been taking gabapentin and goddamn does it work for me. Whereas before I was only able to sleep for an average of 6 to 7 hours on a good day, this stuff let's me sleep very deep for 9 to 10 hours straight. And when I wake up, I feel so damn awesome. After the first night of taking it, I woke up with some solid morning wood and felt better than I've felt in a very, VERY long time. I wake up so refreshed and feeling good. I hear the birds sing, see the sun shine outside and realize what a beautiful day it is. Instead of waking up grumpy and pissed off I now think of what a great day it is and all the cool things I could do. I take days like these as a blessing and a reminder of how great life can be and how awesome it will be all the time again once I've recovered. Because I truly believe I will sooner or later.

Ermm yea that's all for now, long ass fucking post this turned out to be lol.


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It's been a long time again since my last post, I've been enjoying the summer mostly. I'll take some time to update once more and tell you guys how fucking great I feel.

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Blunted, we’ve previously had some disagreement about the extent of the merits of exercise in PFS sufferers. I’ve found that regardless of my exercise routine/attempts (I am a former athlete) the muscles do not respond in a pattern of recovery and growth as they did prior to finasteride. I suffer from the same types of muscoskeletal problems where the muscles are too weak to keep the joints in alignment. I’m responding because I’m surprised that you still have a posture such as this if you’re MMA training and have packed on muscle? Are you still able to keep up with the training routine that you had previously?
For me the process of building muscle and recovery has also changed compared to how I was prior to finasteride. What is quite unusual though is for me it's completely the other way. Whereas most people seem to suffer from muscle wastage and inability to exercise, I now build muscle more quickly, have increased strength and a very short recovery time from training. I can start a workout routine for any given sport to have sore muscles the day after. Only after my first session of a certain routine though, every training session I have after that workout will then result in rapid increased stength and never any muscle soreness ever again (unless I start a new workout schedule of course).

To give you an example. Not too long ago I started doing the jefferson squat in my weightlifting routine (example video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kk0aAaBPc40). The first time I tried it I had major sore muscles the days after, as any normal person would have. The next session I did this exercise though I could lift way heavier and never again did I have sore muscles from the exercise at any time whatsoever. My fitness instructor, a competing bodybuilder himself as well as a steroid user, told me he had never seen anything like that. First of all I can outlift him by a whole lot. And secondly, the recovery period I have is nothing he has ever seen in his years of bodybuilding and the experience (second and first hand) he has with steroids. We're pretty close, but I never told him about taking finasteride. Needless to say, he knows something unusual is going on with me hormonally as he jokingly said I was secretly taking steroids behind his back with me not telling him about it, because that could be the only reason to explain it.

The poor posture I mentioned is something I've always had in my life though and never caused me to have any problems. I can only theorize the muscle loss I experienced shortly after crashing may have worsened this already poor posture and caused even greater muscle imbalance. I've never had musculoskeletal problems as you describe myself where the muscles are too weak to keep the joints properly aligned. For me it's always been muscle imbalance, quite possibly a result of existing poor posture and weightraining that targets the wrong muscles to cause further problems. For my knees it was related to this where my inner leg muscles outpowered the outer leg muscles (for the lack of correct terms, it's be a long while since I've been treated for this hehe) and thus yanking the knee out of proper allignment as it's being used. As stated before there was no muscle weakness involved for me and proper strenghtening of the right muscles has fixed this. It's quite a common injury soccer players have actually. Same sort of thing I see happening a lot when people work out with too much focus on the chest and don't train the shoulders enough. These people usually get the same sort of problems with their shoulder.

And yes I can still keep up with my previous training routines, in fact I've only gotten stronger and stronger and have stepped up my training regimen. Besides weight lifting I am still actively kickboxing which I'm now better at than I've ever been in my life before in terms of cardio, technique and punching & kicking power. In fact my trainer thinks I'm ready to get in the ring, in his words I'd be an A level fighter within a year if I started competing. I'm pretty proud of that since he's a former world champion himself, coming from him that means a lot. And also the fact I can still pull this off with PFS means a great deal to me. I'm currently not competing though seeing as how I don't want to step in the ring until I've recovered.

If anything all the working out and doing sports have helped me out greatly, perhaps more so than anything else, ever since acquiring PFS. First of all it gave me something to focus on when I was totally depressed and at a point in my life where I was completely lost. As I started noticing I was making progress it also restored my self confidence. Not only did I start feeling better both mentally and physically, I also regained faith in my own body, knowing I am able to overcome this and that I will recover.

I can honestly say I feel pretty great lately, sure I'd rather be 100% recovered, but life has been good lately, I generally feel very positive. My erections are great, orgasms are powerful and the semen quality and ammount is just perfect too. I can jerk off two times in a very short time and still do good sexually on these mentioned fronts. I can definitely say sexual side effects have improved a lot over time and still appear to do so. I'm still nowhere near my former self though in terms of libido and the fact that having orgasms still affects me negatively the days after. The main thing I've found that orgasms generally affect is my sleep and thereby starting a chain reaction of other symptoms, being the overly aggressive behaviour I will have the day after and also the muscle twitches. I dunno wether it's the bad sleep or the hormonal changes because of having an orgasms, or both, but I will be so tense and extremely pissed off that it's not uncommon that I blow off some steam by punching holes in my doors and walls. Having orgasms does not affect my ability work out in any way shape or form though, I won't lose any strength or endurance. Long term abstinence also seems to improve my libido I can tell from my last try. So what I'm now planning on doing is staying abstinent for a very, very long time and see what it does for me. I've never tried it for more than a month and having orgasms seems to do more bad than good anyway. So why not stay away from it, seeing as how my low libido tells me physically my body doesn't need or want it anyway.

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Thanks for your concern, it's much appreciated. I was taking this stuff under my general practicioner's supervision, he never prescribed me more than 7 pills to prevent me getting addicted. The last thing he wants is having yet another drug causing more problems.

In the meantime, since my last post, I've also tried a medicine called ambien for sleep. It seemed to help me nearly in the exact same way temazepam did. For me it's an effective symptom manager than improves my sleep to some extent. My final 2 pills from the 7 pill strip didn't do jack shit though and it lost it's effect entirely, I slept just as bad without as without taking them.

I've now found what is really working for me though. Since 4 days I've been taking gabapentin and goddamn does it work for me. Whereas before I was only able to sleep for an average of 6 to 7 hours on a good day, this stuff let's me sleep very deep for 9 to 10 hours straight. And when I wake up, I feel so damn awesome. After the first night of taking it, I woke up with some solid morning wood and felt better than I've felt in a very, VERY long time. I wake up so refreshed and feeling good. I hear the birds sing, see the sun shine outside and realize what a beautiful day it is. Instead of waking up grumpy and pissed off I now think of what a great day it is and all the cool things I could do. I take days like these as a blessing and a reminder of how great life can be and how awesome it will be all the time again once I've recovered. Because I truly believe I will sooner or later.

Ermm yea that's all for now, long ass fucking post this turned out to be lol.


how did you get prescribed that? did you do a sleep study or something?

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Your symptoms and everything you just said in your latest post is pretty much exactly what I have. Sleep is also vital in my recovery, the better I sleep the better I get, and on all fronts. If I get 2 decent nights sleep in a row the benefits that come are incremental, but I don't usually manage more than 2 nights, because I then start to feel horny, jack-off and have poorer sleep! My sleep is so sensitive and i've not managed to cure it yet, so I am perpetually stuck with a medium grade PFS (if that makes sense).

It's encouraging what you write, very well done on getting to where you are at :)


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Your symptoms and everything you just said in your latest post is pretty much exactly what I have. Sleep is also vital in my recovery, the better I sleep the better I get, and on all fronts. If I get 2 decent nights sleep in a row the benefits that come are incremental, but I don't usually manage more than 2 nights, because I then start to feel horny, jack-off and have poorer sleep! My sleep is so sensitive and i've not managed to cure it yet, so I am perpetually stuck with a medium grade PFS (if that makes sense).
Yea I get what you mean, I too wish I would have better quality sleep permanently because to me too it feels like it would be winning more than half the battle. Good sleep means feeling just great, bad sleeps seems to bring forth a catalyst of total gayness in symptoms. Makes sense to say steady great sleep over a long period of time leads to more progress in recovery. Seeing as how jerking off affects you in the same way I'd suggest joining the "no fapping" club too dude.

I sadly have to report that my sleep has gone tits vertical again the last couple of days with the goddamn heat that has been pestering me. It literally turns my room into an oven over the period of day. I'm drowning in my own sweat at night and it's just physically impossible to fall asleep with these infernal temperatures. Even gabapentin can't help with this ass-hattery.

On a brighter note though, gabapentin still seems to bring positive effects despite not doing much for my sleep the past couple of days. Ever since taking this stuff I've noticed a very apparent increase of both facial and chest hair. This stuff has also increased my muscle mass, or perhaps more so the definition and shape. My muscles are now harder and fuller. I'm now not as puffy and soft as I was before. The cutting back of body fat to around 10% I did recently helped a whole lot with this too obviously. It gave me way more muscle definition, even without flexing my muscles you could see veins all over the place. Having taken gabapentin now brought this to a new level however, my muscles are much harder and fuller.

It seems like gabapentin has been switching on something in my body and kickstart certain things which I'm taking as a very good thing.

And now that I think of it while posting, another random thing this stuff has fixed is the puffy nipples, I would get them mostly at night as far as I remember. Gabapentin has been giving me normal nipples throughout the entire day, I'm thinking that's also a very good thing.


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Blunted wrote:
Good sleep means feeling just great, bad sleeps seems to bring forth a catalyst of total gayness in symptoms.


Ditto

My GP has also prescribed me GABApentin, so I will see how it goes for me. Have you been taking it in the day too? That's how mine has been prescribed.

Blunted, I know you snubbed CBT, but I would seriously explore this angle in tandem to your other efforts. I've not started the CBT courses but I just finished reading the Effortless Sleep Method. DEFINITELY buy this and read it. It talks a lot about re-programming your mind and body to sleep again. I thought some of this stuff was BS, but there are a couple of gems in there that have helped my sleep immensely the past 1 week. Last night my body almost slept the whole night, but it did break during the night for a piss. I'm actually looking forward to sleep tonight for the first time in a long time.


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